Social?

This is more or less a social update. I really suck at blogging and my blog is just completely random... which I guess is just like me. =)

Still not luck on internships. Or new jobs that deal with graphic design. I guess I've kinda fallen into a "I don't care" state of mind on pretty much everything. (oops) I haven't really been actively searching. All the effort that goes into one application is a pain. Maybe I am just doing it the hard way. I look at the companies website kind of get a feel for what they do and then I revamp my portfolio to show stuff that I have done that are kind of similar to the ones that I looked at. Plus I write a whole new cover letter for each place usually sometimes I cut and paste and edit. Its alot of work and I think I have done it about 30-40 time so far this year and I've only gotten a first and second interview for one place. It's so discouraging that I just can't handle it anymore. However, I know that is not going to get me anywhere where I want to be. Oh and talking about this reminds me of school... yea still haven't registered. (oops)

I am basically trying to stay busy. Semi recent events have left me feeling like a rug was pulled out from under my feet so quickly that I ended up doing like 3 backflips in the air and came crashing down on shards of glass. Its been rough but I am surviving and just trying to stay busy which is hard to do when one only works 22 hours a week. I'm sure all you people that work 40+ hours of week are like I would love all that free time to get my huge list of things to do done. But lets be honest when you have all that free time you eventually waste it by watching whatever is on your netflix, or cable tv or just even thinking about all the things that you should probably do. Well I have things that I want to do but I just don't have the funds to do it. 

To Do (when funds come):
Paint my room a light blue on 2 opposite walls and maybe white the rest or a sandy yellow
Buy a Luahala mat to put on one of my said painted walls
Buy white frames to put hawaiian style pictures in to put on my luahala mat

I have actually been working on dejunking my room.... well I started. It kind of ended when my mood dipped back down into the "I don't care about anything" mode. Currently my room is a pig sty (thats what my mom would say). Maybe I'll feel motivated this week to clean it. Not only is my room a mess I have a little area in my condo I call my art space. It has basically turned into the stack anything that resembles something that could be used for art here. It's one huge pile of stuff. Even more overwhelming than my room.

I have a lot of art projects in my room that I don't know what to do with. I guess I get too attached to my art work and I can't bring myself to throw it out. Maybe I'll take pictures of it and "auction" it off. Basically if someone wants it they can pay to have it sent to them lol. Some of it is really just garbage and I need to photograph it and throw it out. sigh more hard things in life.

OKAY- Good things. I have been doing some graphic design stuff. Designed a logo for my uncle

And I've gotten into making cards. I made one for my dad for father's day, a friend's birthday card and a bridal shower card (funny story: the font that I used on her card actually matches one of the fonts one her wedding announcement. I didn't get to look at her wedding announcement until after the bridal shower. Yes I am a nerd and I would notice that). I also had a design challenge for one of the internships that I applied for where I had to make icons for a computer program, very new and interesting. Designing a thing that is 64x64 pixels is difficult. I think I may start making a bunch of cards some occasion specific and maybe some just random blank ones. Its been fun and kinda keeps me busy. I love design =) Oh so if you know anyone that needs something designed let them know about me or let me know and I will do my best to help.

I am doing good. Not back to where I would like to be but I can now honestly say that I am okay and that feels like a miracle after the past month and a half or so. Thanks to my awesome friends and of course always my family I love you guys and always will =0D