Something I've really decided that I hate is when people tell you crappy things that happen are for the better. It's like thanks I'm sobbing, arm-pit deep in tissues and you're telling me this is for the better good? In some cases it is true but in the mean time it never seems to feel true. I just find it an insensitive thing to say. I mean I've been told this very statement several times in the past 3 weeks and I just want to punch whoever says it. If you are saying it to make me feel better NEWSFLASH it doesn't do anything of the sort. If you are saying it because you think it is true... great keep it to yourself.
I have also been reflecting on rebounds. I've never really understood them, why people have them. Here is my take on how they happen. You are in a relationship, yay happy, then WHAM it's over. Now you feel like this little pathetic thing for believing in love and that someone actually loved you. You realize you can't sit and do nothing. You go out with friends but you still feel like half a person. After so long of being with one person always having his hand to hold, he was there to hold when you cried, he was a great listener, you could always snuggle with him and rough house with him. Now you are on your own. It's awkward trying to do any of those things on your own and you miss those things (plus others) like crazy. Basically the first few people who come along and give you attention you think Hey guy B could be like a replacement for guy A you think what they heck I need to move on anyway. After a while you realize you don't really actually like guy B and still miss guy A. That when you realize you rebounded.
I know this is just rambling on and I'm sorry but that is pretty much my brain right now all rambles no real complete thoughts. An update to my life... it kind of sucks. Nothing is working out, no internships, no new jobs, and so basically I work 22 hours a week and do whatever I feel like the rest of the time. Sounds nice probably to those of you that are busy pretty much all the time but trust me after about 3 weeks of this I feel like the lamest person on the planet. I create design homework for myself so that I don't lose all my skills over the summer. But its almost unfulfilling to do made up things because its like no one really cares about this design stuff except some fellow students. For those of you that are my friends on facebook you can see all my stuff there. I'm going to start playing waterpolo again this summer so I'm hoping having another thing to do besides work will help boost my morale. Fingers crossed
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